By Grace Carey, Marshville, NC
I am a mother of 5, and I have struggled badly with Postpartum Depression (PPD) after each birth. It looks like rage, sadness, self harm, and suicidal thoughts. When this happens, I feel ashamed and afraid to reach out for help.
When I found out I was pregnant with my last baby, Marigold, I wasn't terrified of birth or having five children under 6. I was terrified of the PPD.
After Marigold was born in April 2020, I was having good days, but also bad days in which the PPD would try to overwhelm me. It got to be so bad that I couldn't drive alone or I would be overwhelmed by the urge to drive off the road and kill myself.
I was self-harming and feeling completely alone. Ironically I was surrounded by people claiming to be my family, but it was a pseudo community.
Back in May 2019, I had joined Christa Gifford’s (a Level 1: Fundamentals student based in Nashville, TN) online Women’s Circle, where we had been learning about Energy Medicine. I’d been practicing Energy Medicine with her on and off for a few months but hadn't been doing it consistently.
After having my fifth baby, I was finally able to catch up on the circle work content I had missed over the past 3 weeks. When I learned about the Triple Warmer and the spleen flush, everything started to come together.
As it turns out, Triple Warmer is the meridian that controls the fight, flight, or freeze response. When the Triple Warmer is overactive, it can cause anxiety and actually impair the immune system. The spleen meridian helps us metabolize not only food but also heavy emotions, which is why we can struggle with emotional issues such as depression when the spleen is out of balance.
I felt that many of the issues I had been experiencing traced to spleen/Triple Warmer imbalances, so I gave the spleen flush a try and did the 5-minute Daily Energy Routine multiple times each day. When I woke up the next morning, all of my symptoms had vanished. I felt LIFE and vitality in my body for the first time in a very long time!
Now I’m laughing with my babies over their mistakes and messes when I would typically feel so stressed and lose it. Whenever I feel myself start to bubble up with stress, I breathe and begin the spleen flush.
I’m so grateful for the opportunity to learn about this life-changing work. It has truly made my life a joy.
I lost my fear of death when I began moving into my body and understanding the life within. Once I lost that fear of death, I stopped feeling the powerful urges of suicide and body harm. It was this big, bad shadow in the room that Mama came in and shined the light on. Thank you for all that you do!